Al Fatihah

Photo taken from my cousin Ihsan

3 days ago, on Monday, 11:37 pm, my beloved grandmother whom all of us refer to as Tok Yah finally bid farewell to the world after making it a better and more beautiful place for almost 80 years. For all the people that she met, all the lives that she touches, of her sons, daughters, grand children, she is closest to the best person one can have as a mother and as a grandmother.

I try to write more than this but I just cant. Allah knows how much I missed her. She used to look after me when we first moved to Muar, back when we didnt have a house, she was the one who look after me.

I remember as a child, running back from the mosque, just because I want to be the first to taste her cooking. I still remember to this day, one night when she cooked daging masak kicap, up till now, that is one of the best food I've ever eaten.

Atok,

I wish I can do more for you, say more, but upon seeing you on your last day I just cant. It hurts, and sad, seeing a person you love so much lying there, breathing albeit artificially by a machine. Last Saturday, you are still holding my hand tight, before Atok suddenly went tachypnic and that was the last time, I can ever feel your hand warm.

I regret I didnt be a doctor earlier. Your words ring in my ear often. How you want me to be one. Now I am, hopefully insyallah, on my way, but there wont be you to see me. I secretly wish, one day you can see me on my wedding day, and sadly, that wont be too.

I cant write more. Eyes swelling, words jumbling. For all i know, you bring joy to so much people, while you suffer in silent from various illnesses. I accept that Atok now is in a better place, and wont be tormented by old age and illnesses anymore.

Al Fatihah to my Tok Yah.

I Hate Timeline

Enough said

A Rock & A Hard Place

Assalamualaikum.

Almost sebulan lebih jugak aku tak update blog ni. And even before sebulan lebih tu pun bukan ada ape ape sangat pun yang aku tulis. Bosan. Sibuk mungkin. Idea pun tiada. Yang pasti menulis di blog sudah bukan lagi medium nak kongsi isi hati atau perasaan.

Diam diam simpan sendiri lagi bagus. Dah dewasa mungkin. Hahaha geli leher dengar.

Dalam hidup ni kadang kadang susah untuk kita jadi manusia yang betul beul baik, jujur, tulus dan ikhlas. Yes, ikhlas. The last word tu yang paling penting.

3 bulan yang sudah ni memang antara pengalaman hidup paling hell yang pernah aku rasakan. macam tajuk yang aku tulis, stuck between a rock and a hard place. Although technically, a rock is also hard place so everything is redundant.

Sometime we try to be as ikhlas as we can possibly be. Doing good deeds, helping others, without any needs for anyone to know or even notice. But then again macam mana if all of that backfire and in the end, we ourself are accused of being ignorant, not pulling our weight or even not doing our responsibility. When in fact, we are, heck, we even do more than ahat are required of us. Just that we dont have the need to brag it to the whole world.

Then, what do we do. Be confrontational. Bagitahu semua yang kita dah buat. Or sometime, for some people, especially laidback and lazy people like me, we just go ah lantaklah. Kau tak tahu tu kau punya masalah.

That is one of my biggest problem though. Aku malas sangat nak susah susah explain to people. You, you, you, are not really that important or significant in my life so lantaklah ape kau nak fikir pasal aku. Aku takde masa nak terang, explain, and I dont even have the need for you to like me, or the need for me to have your reckoning.

Ok cukup membebel panjang. Hidup tak susah. Aku manusia yang sangat pemalas. Aku rajin aku buat. Meaningless, sia sia, tak bermakna aku malas. Dan aku jujur. Aku suka aku cakap. Benda tak betul aku cakap. Tak perlu jadi pencacai jilat bontot jadi hipokrit.

Baik hidup bahagia jadi diri sendiri dari mencacai jadi apa yang orang lain nak kau jadi.

Macam Pak Kordi cakap. Biar hidup tak berduit dari hidup tak berprinsip.

Sekian.

Cuti

Blog cuti rehat lama sebab aku baru balik dari misi kemanusiaan tolong orang susah kat Afrika. Macam macam dah berubah kat dunia ni rupanya.

Ah malas tulis banyak, nak sambung tengok kartun Avatar balik. Nasib dunia dalam tangan diorang ni. Best gila kartun ni kalaulah aku boleh jadi airbender ke earth bender ke macam diorang.

Selamat Hari Deepavali buat rakan rakan yang menyambut Deepavali. Jumpa lagi dalam 2 hingga 4 bulan kemudian.

Stock Clearance Pic

Stock Clearance Pic.

Nikon Stock Clearance

*Picture will come later*

Dealing method: COD

Location: Kuala Lumpur-Melaka-Johor

Contact method/details: 012-3572367/cicadasx@gmail.com

Items

Nikon D60 (body)

Bought : Early 2009

Price : RM 900

Condition : 8.5/10 (come with straps and 4g card)

Comment : I'll give it a 9 actually as I take really good care of my items. Hardly a scratch anywhere, none actually. Shutter count around 20k-25k.Missing the hotshoe but I can replace it if you want.

Personal warranty 1 week

AF-S DX NIKKOR 18-105MM F/3.5-5.6G ED VR

Price : RM 700

Bought : September 2010

Condition : 8/10

Comment : Although bought last year, hardly used as I always stick with my 35mm. In great quality with only fading Nikon word on the cap.

Personal warranty 1 week

* If buy the body with 18-105, im willing to sell at RM1500.

Nikon AF-S Nikkor 35mm 1:1.8G DX

Price : RM 700

Bought : September 2010

Condition : 9/10

Comment : The picture quality need no explaining. Sharp, fast and silent. 10/10 but for the fading Nikon sign on the cap I give it a 9.

Personal warranty 1 week

Nissin Di622

Price : RM 250

Bought : 2010

Condition : 8/10 (missing the stand)

Comment : Appearance is still good, scratchless. I'll give also a batt charger and the battery if you want. Cant remember its brand though.

Lifetime warranty by Bagman

BP02-A03M MOCHA BROWN

Price : RM 150

Bought : 2009

Condition : 9/10

Comment : Hardly used as I have other bags. Keep due to sentimental value but kinda need money so need to sell now. Still in good condition and appearance is 9/10.

Lifetime warranty by Bagman

Water repellent

Front and inner zip pockets

Detachable and adjustable shoulder strap

Side carry handles

STD 450×220x250mm

Kucing Paling Comel

Paling comel dalam rumah aku.

Last Tuesday aku terjumpa 4 ekor anak kucing kat bawah kereta yang nampak macam terbuang tapi macam sihat. Thinking that mesti ada mak dia so aku biarkan ajelah. But esoknya, dah banyak semut geget geget anak kucing comel ni so my friends decided to kidnap makhluk comel ni, letak dalam kotak and bawak pegi kampus.

Beberapa jam kemudian, and a trip to Mines, lengkaplah segala macam makanan, susu, carriage untuk cucing ni. See, cute sangat sampai aku jadi pelat. Kucing jadi cucing lak.

4 ekor kucing comel ni bernama Taucu, Baby, Loli, dan jugak Donut. Aku pun tak tau apsal ade nama taucu, donut, loli(pop). Mungkin time bagi nama ni kawan kawan aku tengah lapar. Baby yang warna putih tu, Loli yang mata macam sakit tu sebab memang die tengah sakit. Semangat terus bawak semua gi checkup kat klinik.

After ditimbang, bagi ubat, cek itu ini, bagi ubat cacing and termuntah berak semua, macam dah sihat sikit and active balik semua makhluk comel ni.

Baby dan Loli betina kot. Tu yang depan 2 ekor camwhoring habis tu. Taucu kat kanan Loli and Donut kiri baby tu is jantan. Taucu macho suka tak tidur jaga adik adik lain tidur. Baby paling manja sebab tu nama dia baby. Loli paling bising sebab tu bila dia sakit diam je semua jadi risau. Donut selalu kena kacau dan buli dengan Baby, sampai calar idung dan telinga dia. Ah comelnya mereka ni!

Mula mula jumpa 3 ekor je, Taucu tak jumpa. Lepas cari cari dalam longkang jumpalah Taucu digeget semut. After masuk kan dalam carriage yang lain terus datang peluk and jilat jilat Taucu. Oh so sweeeeet. Sekali lagi : Ah comelnya mereka ni!

Best betul ade kucing comel ni. Time nak exam camni la ade kucing datang pulak. Tapi tak kisahlah mane tau dapat berkat sikit kot, pahala lebih haha. Mmmuahhxx sayang kucing ini semua haha. Geli geleman ayat macam gay-ish pulak. Dahla beli carriage kucing warna pink.

Oh, kucing, doakan aku nak exam.